This thread is about your Life's Purpose. Or if you prefer, your Fundamental Project Plan of Life.
Now, it's is not about the purpose of life in general. It's about the choice the individual makes as to what they want their overall accomplishment in life to be. (You might want to say you don't really have a choice; that what you strive for is not conciously selected. But I really don't want to get into that.)
In my case, my Life's Purpose has failed. This is the reason I've been feeling depressed, purposeless, and meaningless in life.
And what was that purpose? It was to recreate my life of two lifetimes previous.
Now the funny thing is I only became aware of this about two years ago. Yet for my entire life, I've been working for this purpose. Every time I'd have an idea that would somehow bring me closer to remaking what was a fabulous lifetime, that idea would seem just wonderful, and I'd want to do it right away. This explains everything from my obsession with my XBF to all those times I reinvented myself to my (ill-fated) attempt to move to Australia.
It was a long shot at best, but the really unbelievable part about it was that I came close to succeeding. But like a surface-to-air missle that misses it's target, as time went on, I just got farther and farther away from my goal.
For a long time I held on to the hope that a miracle would occur and everything would be the way I wanted it. Even though my chances of winning were about 1 in 10000 (and that's optimistic), as long as there was SOME hope I could continue looking forward to possible success. But about a year ago I realized there was NO chance left at all. That's when I started feeling empty and without a reason to live.
The solution? A new Life Purpose. And what would that be? I have no idea; I just know that I'm not interested in "soup kitchen" type solutions.
Suggestions are being received.
Helena
Life's Purpose
Now, it's is not about the purpose of life in general. It's about the choice the individual makes as to what they want their overall accomplishment in life to be. (You might want to say you don't really have a choice; that what you strive for is not conciously selected. But I really don't want to get into that.)
In my case, my Life's Purpose has failed. This is the reason I've been feeling depressed, purposeless, and meaningless in life.
And what was that purpose? It was to recreate my life of two lifetimes previous.
Now the funny thing is I only became aware of this about two years ago. Yet for my entire life, I've been working for this purpose. Every time I'd have an idea that would somehow bring me closer to remaking what was a fabulous lifetime, that idea would seem just wonderful, and I'd want to do it right away. This explains everything from my obsession with my XBF to all those times I reinvented myself to my (ill-fated) attempt to move to Australia.
It was a long shot at best, but the really unbelievable part about it was that I came close to succeeding. But like a surface-to-air missle that misses it's target, as time went on, I just got farther and farther away from my goal.
For a long time I held on to the hope that a miracle would occur and everything would be the way I wanted it. Even though my chances of winning were about 1 in 10000 (and that's optimistic), as long as there was SOME hope I could continue looking forward to possible success. But about a year ago I realized there was NO chance left at all. That's when I started feeling empty and without a reason to live.
The solution? A new Life Purpose. And what would that be? I have no idea; I just know that I'm not interested in "soup kitchen" type solutions.
Suggestions are being received.
Helena
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